Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
(Continued from Day 5)
“… but it was all worth it. Because of that struggle, we have you and Dom. We’re a family.”
Stefano smiles to his son, wiping his eyes.
“Why don’t you go play with your blocks? I’ll do breakfast once your brother is up.”
“Okay papa. I love you”
“Love you too Paulo.”
As his son leaves the room, Stefano goes back to making sandwiches, but his mind won’t let go of that memory.
When we got married, I had such high hopes. Everything would be perfect, everything would work out for the best. What happened?
Sofia was… four? No, five months pregnant. Hormonal. Sick. Moody. Sensitive to the least touch. I was stressed from work, we were going through a merger and it felt like everyone wanted a piece of me. She stopped going to church, it was too hard for her to get out, and so I stopped going as well. Life became – get up, do the housework, clean after her, go to work for 12 hours a day, come home, get ignored or get yelled at, go to bed. Day after day after day… I was tired, I was stressed, I was lonely.
Does that excuse it?
Nothing does, but still…
I shouldn’t have lost my temper. It wasn’t her fault… never was. I shouldn’t have yelled back.
I shouldn’t have said what I did.
I shouldn’t have walked out.
She took me back, we got counselling, we worked through it. I know it’s the past.
But how close did I come to losing it all? How close did we come?
The grief of it threatens to overwhelm him once again.
(To be continued…)
We thank you that you offer forgiveness for all who seek it.
We repent of expecting too much of marriage, that we too often make it out to be something that it cannot and will not be.
May the Holy Spirit work in our hearts that we would know instead your will for marriage, that we might submit ourselves to your will. In so doing, that we would speak and act with Godly wisdom around discussions and interactions about marriage.
In Jesus‘ name,
Devotionals written by Ben & Thea Pratt with editorial assistance by
Warwick Marsh & David Rowsome from Canberra Declaration with thanks for input and advice from an interdenominational editorial team. The team at the Canberra Declaration also thank the team at the National Day of Prayer & Fasting for their kind assistance